Saturday, January 17, 2009
|2:05 PM|
its been a long time since i posted... sorry about that, i was busy with school...
new class, new form teacher, new classmates, new friends and new year.
i was appointed class OM. something that i liked to do. but i still prefer being the chairman.
so how? just carry on with life. while most people say: the truth hurts. i say the truth is something that u say to feel better.
i keep saying that i want to concentrate on my studies, its all crap! i cant focus on my studies.
i just cant do it! i know i need to know how to be independent. the more i say i want to forget her, the more i think of her. life is weird no matter how u look at it.
i know i am not a good person, but i want to try to be one. does anyone give me a chance?
suicidal thoughts fill my mind everyday, i know i need to live on but i just dun have the courage to do so. chinese new year is coming but my father is in china until feb.
some mistakes you make, you can save find a solution for it. but the mistakes i make are too grave for any solution. the longer i live, the more i feel weak.
how can i get rid of this feeling?
yesterday was our performance day; PDS performance. the performance was worthless without you there. i wished so hard, prayed so hard that u will be there but u didn't turn up. i just hope that u see my performance and praise it. god didn't give me a chance. what can i do??
feelings for you aren't faded, they were just hidden.
Lost and Never to be Found
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