Thursday, March 19, 2009
|12:02 AM|
my mind is dam confusing now...
anyone care to console me..?
maybe not.. well, the blame has to be on me... i am the cause of all problems...
maybe i should just die and stop causing problems to everyone...
if i died tomorrow, will you cry for me..? will you say you like me..?
maybe not.. even if you did, i wont be able to hear it anyway...
my heart is breaking now... perhaps this is what i'll get for doing so many bad things...
haiz... most people will say, dun haiz be happy, smile...
i just cant do it... i think nothing will make me happy, not even you...
what made me this way..? i have no idea...
everyday, i see couples getting together and separating... no idea why they got together in the first place if they were going to separated from each other in the end...
i almost cried today, just now... maybe i should just let you go... but i dun have the courage...
my tears to you are nothing except water... i tried to help you, tried to talk to you... none it had returns... did everything you wanted me to... you didn't appreciate it... why do you have to torture me like this..? i've been telling everyone, if you dun like me, just tell me... i wont eat you or kill you... at least i know what's on your mind... if you keep quiet, how can i know what's in your mind..? you expect me to read your mind..? i'm holding back my tears for now... i just hope that you would understand me... i never expected you to accept me but at least talk to me! i may seem strong on the outside but in fact, i'm weaker than you think... i get hurt easily but the injury is inside, not outside... the wound in my heart is getting bigger and bigger....
maybe i should just give you up... somebody tell me what to do... not talking to you for 1 day is like a century.... i wonder how i did i go through it... stop my sufferings... i'm afraid that i'll go crazy and kill myself... wondered how people could survive those hardships... answer was: they are strong... okay, i'm weak. i admit that... maybe happiness isn't meant for my life...
Lost and Never to be Found
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