Saturday, May 23, 2009
|10:34 PM|
sorry for not posting for the past few days as i was preparing for my camp which ended just now... school sucks... almost got into trouble... but anyway i heard something that i reflected and found it very very true... maybe i'm just not good enough for you... i cant stop myself from loving you... i know its hard but maybe letting go is the best option? letting you go find someone you really deserve, someone you really like... maybe its better for you? i'm feeling the pain now... i have to endure it no matter how hard it is... i'm a weak person... i'm a total failure... i'm not good enough for you.. letting go seems to be the best... i dunno if i can still like anyone else... you once said to me, 'your heart is dead and it revived?' the truth is, it never showed signs of reviving as it is already so dead... i dun think i can survive this world any longer... i have the feeling that my life is coming to its end and i wont get to see your beautiful face or even hear your sweet voice anymore... every morning when i saw you, my mind was thinking, you are so so beautiful... i'm not even half of you... no matter how hard i try to change, i still cant make you accept me... so why not let you go? i know its a hard decision but i have to do it... i dunno what you think but if you think this way too, i'm really hopeless... i thought you liked me... i thought you really want to be with me... you seem more cheerful with your other friends and when you are with me, you are so down... i tried my best to be with you but you avoided me! is this a sign to give up...? maybe it is... maybe i should let you go... but i wont give you up... i'll just let you go... no matter what happens in future, i still wish that you are happy... your happiness matters alot to me...
Lost and Never to be Found
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